Are we lacking? Are we too much?

The world we live in is a world of balance. If one side outweighs the other, an invisible hand balances the scales. When or how is unknown. So, how are these balances determined? Is there a written rule? We say “man is not superior to man”, but is it really so? Does the fact that someone has more money, has a certain influence make them superior to someone else? How do we determine who is more on balance?

As human beings, we are all less, we are all more. We are inherently incapable creatures. We believe with all our hearts that we are all-powerful, but when we look at the reality, we are actually too incomplete to do anything. No matter how hard we try, no matter how much we tear ourselves apart, we cannot control everything, we cannot realize that perfect measure we want. Now, there is no point in thinking so little of ourselves because we are as much more as we are less. We are so much more that what doesn't fit in this world, in this place, is collected elsewhere. I will continue without putting anyone's beliefs on the table. There are some truths that will come with us after we die. Whether you call it the good deed/sin binary or good energy/bad energy, if you believe in the afterlife, you know the effects of what we have done and will do. Isn't that where even our dreams and fears are based? Here, we are so many that, as Nesimi says, “we cannot fit in one world.”

So how important should these deficiencies and excesses be for us? Are they so valuable that they are worth thinking so much about? Of course they are. We all have a value. This value may seem to vary according to different sequences of events, but we are all the same. We are priceless beings and worthless at the same time. You sit down at a table and the people who stand hand and foot for you will not leave your side; you get up from that table and go to the restroom, and you realize that you are no different from those who raised you up. Therefore, can we say that what affects your value is not the things you experience, but the places you live? Everyone has heard different versions of comparisons between the price of water at the grocery store and the price of water at the airport, or the price of a second-hand car from the owner or the dealership. Some have heard them as parental advice, and some have heard them in those TEDx talks that always say “travel the world”. But what about the people who have said these things to you? How understood are these topics, including me? Do we really understand what we say or do we just say it for the sake of saying it?

Everything you own takes something of value away from you and brings something of value back. From an economic point of view, for a certain price we get a service or an item of the same value. Theoretically, as soon as it is lacking, it is replaced; when you had 5 liras in your pocket, that 5 liras suddenly turned into a water bottle (there is no point in writing the current price of water and getting depressed). Whether you call it clothing style or the items used. If we look at it from this perspective and analyze the event materialistically, the balance has not been disturbed, but in fact a lot of things have shifted. And what has shifted this scale is not the value of what you bought or the position it brought you to. Your place in life has changed. If you go and buy a book or a pen with money, why are we all gas-guzzling for yachts, floors, cars, when what they can bring to you can be more than the 3-5 cents you give. Are they the things that will make us more? Or who determines what we lack when we take them away? These are all contained in that bone bowl. The meanings to be attributed to the material substance also come from within us, as do the weight measurements we make about someone else. When we look at a man with the latest model sports car and say “wow, look at the car; look at what he drives”, just as we elevate that man, we also create a certain deficiency in ourselves. In order to cover that deficiency, we attack with certain tools and try to prove to ourselves that the scales are not out of balance. And we usually do this by hiding behind this extremely subjective word called “vision”. Since we can't openly shit on the guy, how much lower can we lower ourselves when we say, “He doesn't have the vision, dude, I'll have the money, ouch, I'll make his ass cry”?

Oh, that's what I will say: Those thoughts determine your whole balance. Not what others say about you, not where you are, not the events you have experienced. Whatever you are, you will continue to be until you die. It is only through your thoughts that the things you influence will change.

So I ask you, how much are you lacking? How much more are you? Are you right in your own measure?